the first one, currently my fav video clip
the second, my favorite song, currentlystay, and it's beautiful

I don't know who write this

people said that girls tend to feel and think and done things with their heart, but i try not to

people also said that girls will spill all their feeling and emotion out, and i merely try not to

i'm not saying that i live against my role as a girl, i am a girl from venus, and i'm proud of it. i just.. have a slightly different way of thinking than most of them, girls

since the heart is the world's number one liar, you can lie to yourself, why? because of your heart, the ego the pride the love the hate, every single things that come from your heart could drive you away from the truth, love isn't blind, instead the heart, it's blind. the heart is the most sensitive part of humankind (not scientifically, i talk in the scope of psychology), you know what it feels like when your heart hurts, uh? words can't describe it, especially you, girls, i'm a girl and i know what do girls feel when they hurt. then if you think with your bleeding heart, what kinda things you can think of correctly? therefore, i do feel with my heart, but i think with my brain and done things with my gut

all this time i prevent my mouth from spilling the hatred, the pain, and all of their family. for me, the best place for those emotion is myself, and secrets are made to be kept not to be told, right? it isn't because i don't believe you, people, i do believe in some of you, but i just willing to keep it for me, only. and try to figure out the problem by myself, am i too selfish?

but sometimes, yeaa, sometime, this girl needs help. and badly, she doesn't know how to ask one, she doesn't know how to tell her story, she doesn't know when she has to, but the worst, she doesn't know what does she feel, what's wrong? just like when she wrote this chain of words. and by the god of the worst, her ego is beyond everything

i think my foxy heart finally have beat my mind up

LIGHT CORAL (34)

just bougth a new one :D

i miss you like whatsoever,

but i know the time i meet you, i'll freeze and just stare at you

i miss you galak :c

4-3-3; 4-4-2; 3-5-2

why do men love football? that's a question in my head,

okay i've met some boys who have no interest on football at all, but i can say that it's only around 20%, which, 10% they just don't like football, another 5% do prefer other things (in this case, music) and 5 more percent are gay, gah!

and the rest, they are all sooooooo into football

no offense and i'm not making football as a problem, just questioning it in my head

then if i ask the girl in the mirror, what does she love? yeaah, i mean what do i love, they are :

myself, my family, my bff, my friends, bed, shoes, ice cream, money, yellow, camera, bags, turquoise, sushi, vanille, nail polish, sketch book and colored pencils (i hate crayons), jasmine&aladdin, bangles, johnny depp, novel, hair clip... god, they're too much to be told, and to be true i love my boyfriend

but they aren't hobbies! i just have realized that i have no hobby, the exact one. i always write swimming as my hobby in my bio, but in fact, i am too lazy to go to the ground floor and drown to the swimming pool.

people thought that photography and art are my hobbies, cause they often see me with camera (and they said i'm good on it) and as well with paper and colors (they also said that i'm good on it). actually, i do both of them because i'm good on it, i always do something that i'm good on, and run away from a thing that i couldn't do, like singing.

in my encephalon, hobby is a thing which people love to do despite their inability, so they keep doing it even if they aren't good on it, and they try to be good, and in the end they become a good one by practice. but this is not happen to me, i am the contrary, i don't try, and i don't want to try.

so, can i declare myself as a person without any hobby?

Neither photography nor art, i'm into myself, selfish?

maybe a bit too early but merry xmas cha! LOL

don't forget to bring me something nice from Iowa!

a friend just rang my phone at 6am, which is my perfect sleeping time and it means she really really brightens my day, zzz. and what did she say? she yelled me a HAPPY BIRTHDAY lol, hahaha come on dude my day is still a month and 9 days away!! haha she says something like this, "Happy birthday! Waiting for your treat, always be, and wish you blablablah. Oh yeaa i'm calling now because i'm going to Iowa in two days, so i won't promise you to call on your birthday because you know i don't wanna spend a buck just to wishing you happy birthday from the states hahahahaha, well okay i know you're half sleeping, don't miss me, bye!", and i didn't say a thing.......... i went back to sleep and just realized around 30 minutes later then called her back, wew.
good luck reaching your masteral there keysha!





now, this week, still in the mood of holiday, sleepyhead-ing and movie worming, i've watched too much dvds, yay! watched a christmas carol, which was 3D and the 3D glasses means dizzy so i didn't wear it, gah. next screen is new moon, and for me, 6 out of 10, especially for people who've read the book, and i have, so don't watch it (offensive, am i?) read the book!

okay, book, books, did i tell you i love books? the last song by nicholas sparks is my current book, i'm reading it for now and sparks's is always great for sure <3

this one is also great, haven't got the chance to buy it arrrhhgg

another anyway, i found an online camera shop, check their site out!
http://kawaii-store.blogspot.com/


this is too cute to resist uh? the princess diary (omg what a name), mouth-watering drooling, really, i really want some pleaseeee........... i know i know this cam seems girly, but i AM a girl! lol



gee, they got 3 lens korean disderi which i've been wanting for years!!

and the aqua pix isn't bad, it's underwater, and it's yellow!!!

someone please gimme one of them?? please :D
mom is out of the country, means no going out for a week taking care of my lil bro zzz

Shakespeare; 'Hamlet' Act 2 Scene 2

Doubt thou the stars are fire;
Doubt that the sun doth move;
Doubt truth to be a liar;
But never doubt I love




you

this is the end of my 3rd semester - 4th november 2009

yay it's been about 2 weeks since i left my college, for semester break not graduating -sigh, and it's still around 3 weeks til the X day i-hate-to-but-i-have-to go back to the college (but you make me keep waiting for the day to go back to, you), then this is my 123rd post haha i love that numbsss!

i've told you that i've been vely vely busy lately uh? now i am as free as a bird with triple wings, in other words i have nothing to do, really, just like another day in another holiday, where mostly you could find me in bed.


anyway, no offence but i hate living in Kuala Lumpur, why? because of the looooong queue line in front of cinema box, for a week (or more) the Qs were still look like snakes, and i coulnd't bear myself to jump into the line, and i bet next week the cinema will gettin worse, new moon is going to hit the country, geezz! so you people better buy the ticket from internet, like i did, and i can't wait to watch it, of course without queueing like that. why everyone seems like they had never seen a movie before, never found some Q like that in Jakarta, long live Jakarta!!





well, see ya, i may not post a thing til something hit my head and push me to write, actually i don't know what to write, i'm tryin not to publish my life love and live on the net any longer, who knows when the mood comes back, but for now, no words can describe this

xo
i'm waiting for my gpa to come out, oh god

is there any sorry for coming late?

<3

YAY SING IT LOUD!!!!

lol