Two hours left before the midnight.
You left me null and nil, lacking any legal or binding force,
as always.
Have told you, I've been really.. really great for the time being, successfully mend what was broken. Those passing years have taught me hundreds, showed thousands faces of yours. But today is your worst, I am defenseless, the wall is breaking.
I'm not joking when I said it's getting harder to breathe, the feeling, I know this familiar feeling, the one that started it all. The toughest feeling i ever survived. When my younger soul filled with the fear of losing you, and I dare myself to hold, Je pense. But this time I don't know why I can't tell you to be here, the words come out in absence. I thought the victory is mine, thought am ready to carry the fact that we'll never walk in the same line. But yeah, this is your victory, you bring me back to the endless ocean, I don't know where I'm heading, you show me no lights.
You're a coward and the most selfish person ever so. You can't even take a bold decision, what man can be made from you? It has been ages, ages! But what more stupid than a person who, despite those freaky facts of yours, could stand and still, loving you? I know there must be something wrong with me. It has been ages, ages! And this heart still beats for the same reason, after all, it's always a part of you I've been longing for.
For the elapsed time, I think I know you, but you think I don't. So it was you all this long, who lack the cognition of me. I'm a pain in the arse, you just don't know yet.
It's all or nothing, and I mean it. Because I know my desire, to have one on my back, who'll catch me if I fall, who'll let me sleep in those arms. I once took the hit, now the ball is in your court. Please.
Je t'aime. I need a hug.
